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I have a lot of thoughts in my mind (I think my brain is set on overdrive... it's like it's taken one too many hits of speed!)

I have to get these thoughts out somehow... Hence my 3 blogs:

-Harder 4 Me 2 Breathe (sort of like a diary with some essay type things mixed in there)
-MiZzUnD3RzT00D P03TRii (self-explanatory)
-MiZzUnD3RzT00D PR0z3 (all my sick twisted stories, lol... well they're not all sick and twisted, but I do have a tendency to lean toward the macabre)

These are my thoughts, manifested in words to the best of my ability in expressing them...

Monday, May 4, 2009

"Mizz Underztood, where you been???"

So sorry, no new blogs. But my computer charger is broken so I can't really get on the internet often. Will be back soon. Love you, lovelies!

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-Mizz Underztood, still on the search for clarity-

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Gotta Live For Me! {a story}

Once upon a time, there was a girl. This girl was a "people pleaser" personality. She was always striving to help people and to make everyone else happy. She always put everyone else's wants and needs before her own. She also had trouble telling people no. Eventually she stopped genuinely liking to help people, yet she continued to do it because it was all she knew. Well, one ordinary day she met a very special boy, and they both inadvertently changed each other's ways of thinking. The girl and her boy friend grew into a woman and a man... the girl, now a woman, still could not help but to help people, and it was starting to become her downfall, because it seemed that everytime she succeeded in making one person happy, there was someone else who was unhappy, and when she tried to make that person happy someone else was unhappy. The cycle just continued, and it eventually made the woman unhappy... She had this dilemma for quite some time, until one day, she had enough.

"I've come to realize that it is impossible to please everyone all the time. It's wearing me down to try. I can't go on like this. I've got to live for me!"

[END]

-Mizz Underztood, still on the search for clarity-

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Random Bedtime Thoughts. 4-25-09, 3:11a

Random @Bedtime Thoughts {in no particular order}

-That dude + His nonsense = NOT COOL.

-How random of my ex from 7th grade to randomly start FB chatting it up with me and then make an ePass at me... Lol.

-Something about this dude intrigues me... And its funny because I know unless significant changes occcur in my life, NOTHING is gonna come of it, but still... Is it bad to wonder?

-Today had the potential to be VERY suckie... Glad that it didn't continue down the path to suckieville... *wipes sweat from forehead*

-Speaking of sweat... It was hot as the devil's oven out this ho today! *smdh at the madness*

-When will I stop going through these loop-de-loops? You would think they'd have stopped by now, but ALAS, they're still here. Lol.

-Why am I starting to write again now, after having writer's block for so long? Tis strange, indeed... I must be feeling some kinda way about something... What that something is, I have NO CLUE as yet but I suppose it will reeal itself in due time...

-Twitter is the devil... I am 98% sure of it.

-And if Soulja Boy twitters the same thing over and over again one more time... I'm gonna cock back my eGat and shoot his ass... that is ALL.

-Effin Soulja Boy... *grumble* That n*@#! making me reconsider my unconditional love for him, shoot... *end grumble*

[END]

-Mizz Underztood, still on the search for clarity-

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Wants VS Needs

Until my mind grew up, I used to often confuse wants with needs
I’d say things like...

I need a man
And he needs to be tall
And he needs to be rich
And he needs to be handsome
And he needs to have his own place
And he needs to be doing something with his life
He needs to be funny
And he needs to be highly intelligent
And he needs to be caring and compassionate
And he needs to know exactly what I need him to do without me having to tell him.

Then my mind starting growing up…
And I realized a few things…
I didn’t NEED any of these things
I WANTED a man,
A tall,
Rich,
Handsome man,
A man with his own place,
Who was going somewhere in life
A funny,
Highly intelligent,
Caring and compassionate,
Damn near psychic man.

I also realized that maybe,
JUST maybe…
He didn’t have to be tallMedium height could suffice…
He didn’t have to be rich… Just financially stable
He didn’t have to be handsome… Just as long as he was decent looking and kept himself up
He didn’t have to have his own place, as long as he wasn’t planning on living with his parents FOREVER
He DID, however, have to be doing something with his life, though…
Because I can’t stand people who are comfortable living off of others… But I digress.
He didn’t have to be outrageously funny, just as long as something about his personality was interesting enough to keep my attention
He didn’t have to be highly intelligent, just as long as I didn’t constantly debate within myself whether he or butter had the higher IQ
He didn’t have to be the most caring, compassionate man in the world, as long as I could tell that he did have emotions and wasn’t hardened to life
And he DEFINITELY didn’t have to be psychic, because I know that is unreasonable, and seeing as I pride myself in being a grown woman, I also know that grown women don’t EXPECT people to know what they are thinking, but EXPRESS THEMSELVES so as to make it abundantly clear.

And I’m glad I realized that all of these are wants, because I now can see past the wants, to figure out the needs….
For instance, I now know that I NEED to work on aspects of myself to become a better me
Because without me being the best ME I can be, who am I to want so much of someone else?

[END]

-Mizz Underztood, still on the search for clarity-

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Spring Break in Cali -hella late lol-

So.

For Spring break, I went out to San Diego, California to visit my friends Dorian and Nile... We took pictures, yes we did :) So... here are some of the highlights, and you can view the rest of the beach pics here.

Had fun, even though there was drama going on back home, lol.

Tis my beautiful face :) In the car on the way... somewhere, lol.


Me, Dorian, Nile, Greg, two of Greg's friends, and a bazillion of Dorian & Greg's cousins. {Greg & dorian are brothers}


Me being cute on the miniscule beach towel lol
Stepping into the water... Twas cold {the water}, but I still liked it lol

This looks cuter than it really was, lol. I was pulling Dorian into the ocean... he's terrified of the ocean. How you join the Navy, being terrified of the ocean, is beyond me lol.

Being cute once again, posing on the big rock at the edge of the beach.

Me posing {are you seeing a trend? Lol} with Nile's nutty self in my background... didn't realize he was in the pic, til after it was taken, lol.


So you've seen the highlights, now go look at the facebook album!


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-Mizz Underztood, still on the search for clarity-

Bad Blogger -sigh-

Yes, I know... Y'all haven't caught hide nor hair of me in months.
Yes, I know... I promised not ONE, not TWO, but THREE new blogs.
Yes, I know... I've been a bad blogger.

BUT... There are reasons, as there always are...

1. I was still suffering from that dreaded writers' block.
2. Once I got over said case of writers' block, I had 6.5 consecutive weeks which absolutely were NOT conducive to blogging:
.....a week in which we were preparing for DRIVEN week
.....a week which was DRIVEN week
.....midterms week
.....spring break {photo blog coming up next!}
.....a very suckie week in which I was completely sick {a bad case of food poisoning, immediately followed by a stomach virus} AND chipped a tooth AND lost my phone.
.....at the very end of the suckie week, my daddy died, which added another week and a half of terribleness to my life.
3. Ever since I came back to ATL from CT following my daddy's funeral, I've been playing catch-up in school, and looking for an apartment, since I didn't get the job @ Disney World that I applied for {more suckieness, I've been having a horrific month and a half}.

However... ALAS, here I am, and I think I've found a solution to my blogging problem {at least I can figure that out cuz I sure can't figure anything else out -sigh-}.

I need to put myself on a blogging schedule... aka, pick specific day(s) of the week when I absolutely MUST blog... because if I don't, I won't.

SooOo... expect a blog from me on Sundays, and possibly random ones throughout the week. But Sunday is my fixed blogging day... and if I find myself writing more than one blog a week I will add another fixed blogging day, lol. Dunno if that's gonna happen anytime soon, but we'll see.

So yeah, I will have an absolutely wonderful outstanding marvelous blog for you guys on Sunday... and today, you'll have THIS blog and a photo blog of my spring break... Not the complete spring break because most of my pictures were taken on my cell phone, which is gone -sad face- BUT a few survived, lol.

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Mizz Underztood, still on the search for clarity-

Monday, January 12, 2009

Conversations Shall Be Banned! Lol

My friends and I have a bunch of random conversations... and a LOT of them end up producing something quote-worthy, lol. I loves my crazies ♥

Cristen:

Cristen: It's weird... It's like I can hear you in my brain when I put you in my mouth...
Jazzmin: Uhhhh... I'm not sure I'm comfortable with how that sounds!

Jazzmin: Umm, what should I say to someone who said they want me for their birthday?
Cristen: Uhh, ask them... with whip cream, or honey?
Jazzmin: -long silence- Ur a bad influence on my decisions...

"Religion is when you talk to God... Schizophrenia is when he talks back to you!"

Cristen: I need to be at one of these things... no cuz I'd end up hurting someone's feelings and then I'd fe--- No I wouldn't... I wouldn't feel bad.
Jazzmin: -laughs- mmm... Me and you are similar... we don't like ppl touching us... well, random ppl
Cristen: I like random BOYS touching me...
-awkward silence-
Jazzmin: You whore! -cracks up laughing-

"Maybe her God antenna is broken..."

"Freaks & geeks, freaks & geeks!!!"

Cristen: Where are you writing this down?
Jazzmin: In a notebook...
Cristen: Kkz...
-5 minutes later-
Cristen: Wait... what kinda note?
Jazzmin: What?
Cristen: What kinda note are you writing? Like... a Facebook note?
Jazzmin: -sigh- I said notebook... NoteBOOK not NOTE! Slowness...

"This is how havin a baby feels... Everything stretches outta place... then it burns.... then you get used to it. Then it starts all over when you get to the next lump!" --- On pooping (LMAO)

Cristen (on the toilet): I feel like I'm having a baby!!
Jazzmin: Outta your BUTT?!?!
Cristen: Yes!!!!
Jazzmin: Uh.... (Cracks up laughing) Sorry... I really didn't mean to laugh at that one...

"Hey I had a baby outta my butt... Does that mean I had a Jesus poop? No wait, I mean, a Jesus baby--turd---thing... ?"

Jazzmin: Crissy sing to me!
Cristen: A B C D E F G H I J K ...
Jazzmin: Why, Cristen, Why??
Cristen: You said sing to me...

Jazzmin: (singing) I need love...
Cristen: (singing) If it's lovin that you want... nvm
Jazzmin: What? Why'd you stop?
Cristen: Cuz, it's the song.. "If it's lovin that you want you should make me your girl, If it's lovin that you need, baby come share my world"
Jazzmin: Gay! You're so homo!
Cristen:THAT'S WHY I SAID NVM

RaShaun:

(on the Atlantic Station shuttle)
Jazzmin: -laughs- I'm a sicko... but you love me though! So it's okay!
RaShaun: It's like a disease... it just won't go away.
Jazzmin: -laughs- Sorry, I can't help it if I'm loveable!
RaShaun: You gave me STL...
Jazzmin: -thinks-
Both: Sexually transmitted love! -laughs-

Jazzmin: "I'ma need them to stop kissin"
RaShaun: "I know you not talkin with all them pics of you and this dude hugged up."
Jazzmin: "Her cousin though?!?!"
RaShaun: "I thought u were talkin about her and her girlfriend... cuz u definitely be all hugged up with your boyfriend."
Jazzmin: "SoooOo we don't be kissin!"
RaShaun: "Maybe not in the pictures, but..."
Jazzmin: "Nope we don't kiss, we just hug and hold hands."
RaShaun: "................Pleeeease tell me you're lying "
Jazzmin: (laughs) "I'm just joking" (laughs some more)
RaShaun: "I was gonna say... this dude must think he's Jesus"
Jazzmin: (cracks up laughing)

Dorian:

(a random AIM convo)
Dorian (5:08:51 AM): i'm goin to the studio, i making a cd
Jazzmin (5:09:06 AM): uh... huh...
Dorian (5:09:30 AM): geez... im mad u dont believe me, wat if i was tellin the truth
Jazzmin (5:10:07 AM): lol
Dorian (5:11:30 AM): one day i will... i want groupies
Jazzmin (5:11:39 AM): -rolls eyes-
Jazzmin (5:11:45 AM): have fun with that
Jazzmin (5:11:51 AM): (the groupies)
Dorian (5:12:24 AM): ugk, ur not supposed to say that. ur supposed to tell me hell no, i will castrate u... ur not being wife material
Jazzmin (5:12:38 AM): lol i loooooooove u
Jazzmin (5:12:56 AM): this is goin on my facebook quotes btw
Dorian (5:13:11 AM): lmao...
Dorian (5:14:33 AM): yea tell the world ur not wife material
Jazzmin (5:16:59 AM): iont care loser
Jazzmin (5:17:12 AM): lol

Harold:

Jazzmin: You are a mess!
Harold: And you are a broom... come clean me up!

"Anonymous Guy":

Jazzmin: For some reason, I'm droolin right now
Anonymous Guy: It's because you're thinking the same thing that I'm thinking
Jazzmin: (thoughtfully) No....... actually, I think it's because that was a bangin ass popsicle
Anonymous Guy: That's goin on MY facebook notes... NO, actually it's not cuz it's embarassing...

Jermaine:

Jermaine: Yeah I know your boyfriend, his major is something with an -ology in it...
Jazzmin: Umm... his major is philosophy
Jermaine: Yeah! That one
Jazzmin: (looks at him like he's retarded)
RaShaun: (walks away down the Promenade)

Melissa:

Jazzmin: Am I the one?
Melissa: NO
Jazzmin: Am I the two?
Melissa: NO
Jazzmin: Do I play with anybody's kids?
Melissa: NO
Jazzmin: Okay I didn’t think so... just checkin.
Melissa: -laughs-

Boys in car: -Stops driving- Y'all going to the river by yourselves?
Jazzmin: -Looks at them then keeps walking-
Boy driving car: -Shakes head and starts to drive away-
Melissa: -To boys- Why, you wanna come?
Jazzmin: -Looking horrified- Omgsh! Come on, Mish! -Grabs Melissa and drags her toward the river-
Melissa: -Cracks up laughing-

Jazzmin: Melissa who are you BOOOO LOVING....
Melissa: What?
Jazzmin: (singing) BOO LOVING... BOO LOVING... Melissa is BOO LOVING
Melissa: Noooo nobody's Boo loving...lol

Jazzmin: (typing and talking simultaneously) Violence is not the answer... (stops typing) Right Melissa?
Melissa: Yes... the answer is always YES!

Sama:

Jazzmin: Ummm... Why did she say I love you too when I didn't say I love you first?
Sama: I woulda been like "Excuse me, in order to be a love TOO, there has to have been a love ONE"...
Jazzmin: I am SO putting that on Facebook (laughs)

Jami:

Jazzmin (In the rain): Damn we look like a coupla bamas wit our pants rolled up like this!
Jami: Yeah... I feel like a soggy ass cookie!

(Random AIM convo)
Jami: :-(
Jazzmin: Shush... that sad face upsets me
Jami: Y does it upset u?
Jazzmin: Cuz I like rainbows and sunshine and happy things, gosh
Jami: Lol shut up u fuckin care bear

"Awwwwwwhhhh there's cream inside!!!" --- After eating my orange cupcakes

Carlton:

"I'd hate to wake up on a hook. It's like wakin' up with your phone dead... You just feel bad!" --- While watchin' Texas Chainsaw Massacre w/ me and Sama and Branden in Branden's room

Me:

"After that (points in Brit's general direction), I'm gonna need something to wash the fishy taste outta my mou--- (slaps self on forehead)"--- After eating tuna fish on crackers in Brit's room

"The only way to stay sane in this world is to act crazy..." --- to Nicky

"Everything happens for a reason... Some reasons are just a lil harder to find!"

"How could I be so wrong?"

"Never in life... !!!"

"NEVER AGAIN!!!"

"My foot TODATASS!"

Amber:

"Jazzmin why is u stomp'n & bebop'n around?"--- When I was goin off about some dude trying me.

Brittany:

Brittany: ... then you can be his Butta Biscuit AND his sausage.
Jazzmin: Why would I want to be a sausage?
Brittany: Men like pork.
Jazzmin: -Blank look-
Brittany: Men like pork... Sausage is pork... So you wanna be sausage so he'll like you even more!

Monjui:

"I need to go lift... so I can tame that lion of yours!"

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Laughing so hard at these 'tards makes it a bit difficult to...
-Breathe easy-